Just Small Hiccups
My father once told me that my world is like a black and white image, but I guess my heart has found it´s own colours.
I began my Just Small Hiccups story after I moved back to my childhood home with my own family. I photographed the feelings that arose in the house full of memories, with it´s garden and the nearby forest. This photographic story is a poem, made from a deeply personal point of view, however portraying the universal feelings to understand life. With the pictures and texts it addresses growing up, how we see ourselves and each other in a family.
“Just Small Hiccups” is a visual poem that weaves its story around a young woman’s awakening through absorbing the world around her. Each image unfolds itself into the other creating a stillness that beckons you into her domain as an observing guest. “I Know a Place that isn’t” holds onto a dream that has no end, rotating through the fingers of an innocence that listens before it sees. Grey tones bathe in a mother’s love that blooms by the start of her own ascending.
Yes, it’s true you can’t get lost if you don’t know where you are going. Anni Hanén’s “Just small Hiccups” is such a journey where you hope it never ends. It reminds us all of life’s vulnerabilities and the strength it takes to embrace them. Her small son becomes the quiet narrator who introduces the past within the present. He is “Under No Ones Thumb” “Sometimes Loving, Sometimes Hating,” no promises or valentines on this boy’s path. This book is shrouded in a cool quietness that carries its memories “Through Me in You.” It’s more than just a story between a mother and her son. It’s an awakening between two souls whose roles are
ever changing.
Everything we know is inside us. This book reminds me of a sharing moment I had with my father. It was a warm balmy summer night in downtown LA. The streets where thronged with a lazy flow of people surrounded by a canopy of noise from a city on the move. He asked me “Son, can you hear the crickets chirping?” I in turn looked up to him puzzled by the question of how one could hear anything in this mass of motion. Without much fan fare, he pulled a quarter from his pocket and flipped it into the air, letting it land on the sidewalk we were walking. Immediately, three people looked down to the sound of the coin hitting the pavement. He calmly smiled and said “Well, son, that depends upon what you are listening for.”
— Timothy Persons
Home
smoke rises from the chimney
beckoning to warmth and safety
from cellar to attic
house full of hideouts
the core of the house changes
the warmth of the bedroom
transformed into my chilly office
build by my grandfather
abandoning the war for memories
items and furniture
made by measure
cabinets chest boxes
locks are always open
explored only by permission
I forget reality
stories live in me
house with a garden
woods stand sentinel
where my mother walked
paths formed
where I walked
paths got stronger
there my child plays
paths remain
if my house is my shelter
the woods are my castle
I build a nest in the castle
imagination as a friend
infinite woods
constellations guiding
searching for wisdoms of life
an unuttered permission
to hide secrets
confirmation for the same happiness
I can´t do anything
I can´t do anything,
I don´t know anything,
and I don´t know why.
All is nonsense,
I´m just silly,
and I don´t know why.
Isäni sanoi minulle kerran, että maailmani on kuin mustavalkoinen kuva, mutta luulen sydämeni värittäneen sen omakseen
Pieniä ilmakuoppia vain -sarja sai alkunsa muutettuani oman perheeni kanssa lapsuuden kotitalooni. Kuvasin tunnekokemuksia, jotka nousivat esille muistojen täyttämässä talossa, sen puutarhassa ja läheisessä metsässä. Kuvat toimivat siltana menneen, nykyisen ja tulevan välillä ja samalla dialogina äidin ja lapsen välillä. kuvallista maailmaani leimaa runollisuus. Kuvien hiljainen rytmi ja vähäeleisyys jättää ne avoimeksi tulkinnoille. Kuvat ja tekstit käsittelevät kasvamista ja sitä miten näemme toinen toisemme perheessä.
Koti
piipusta nousee savua
se kutsuu lämpöön ja turvaan
kellarista vintille
talo täynnä piiloja
talon ydin muuttuu
makuuhuoneen lämpö
työhuoneenani viileänä nyt
vaarini rakensi
jättäen sodan muistoihin
esineet ja huonekalut
mittojen mukaan tehty
kaapit kirstut rasiat
lukot aina auki
tutkia voi vain luvalla
Unohdan todellisuuden
tarinat elävät minussa
talo puutarhalla
turvanaan metsä
missä äitini kulki
polut muodostui
missä minä kuljin
polut vahvistui
siellä lapseni leikkii
polut säilyvät
jos kotini on majani
niin metsäni on linnani
linnaankin pesän rakensin
mielikuvitus ystävänä
metsä rajattomana
tähtikarttojen ohjaillessa
elämän viisauksia etsiessä
lausumaton lupa
salaisuuksien kätkemiseen
varmistus saman onnen
En osaa mitään
En osaa mitään,
en tiedä mitään
enkä tiedä miksi.
Kaikki on pötyä,
olen vain typerä,
enkä tiedä miksi.